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i love it when you say i'm cozy
i won't move an inch
skin so soft brings me misery
i'll miss you when i'm gone
i don't think it'll that long
a soft reaction can't make traction
make your moves it's time for action
i love it when you say i'm cozy
i won't move an inch
skin so soft bring me misery
i'll miss you when i'm gone
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september felt like a lifetime ago
and relax, i said i'm sorry
but sorry's not enough
when i'm not the life of the party like i think i am
do i even know what the fuck that i'm about?
but that day's gone and i knew i was wrong when i left you for the first time by yourself
and if im a blessing how come im not blessed?
with a fortunate tongue like my best friend says
and if god exists it's really hit or miss
but why won't he help me
why wont he help me?
but i wont complain when she loves our kids
and that hasnt started yet
no it hasnt started yet
maybe im not as lucky as before
amayah i'm sorry.
i didn't really know what i wanted.
amayah i'm sorry.
i didn't know what i really wanted.
and if im a blessing how come im not blessed?
with a fortunate tongue like my best friend says
and if god exists it's really hit or miss
but why won't he help me
why wont he help me?
but i wont complain when she loves our kids
and that hasnt started yet
it hasnt started yet
maybe im not as lucky as before
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fade into darkness
i knew i'd find you waiting there for me
cause all this bullshit
that i've been thinkin
just like the spirals in my eyes
swirl like a staircase
of disappointment and grief
and ill climb to the very top
where i'll you there waiting there for me
and i don't want to feel your arms anymore
i find it kinda hard
just to live like this
always stuck in my own head
but the bodies surf across the plains
known as hatred, guilt, and shame
im just a body
when will it stop?
fade into darkness
i knew i'd find you waiting there for me
cause all this bullshit
that i've been thinkin
just like the spirals in my eyes
swirl like a staircase
of disappointment and grief
and ill climb to the very top
where i'll you there waiting there for me
just remember
that i loved
you.
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girlweed (2022)
03:38
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i grew up in the suburbs
where people knew their names
with the barking in the summer
from the dogs who would stay chained
to their houses in the backyard
of an east coast family
who never needed anything
and that's just how they think
we met when i was 19
at the market square garage
when you tried to catch a pigeon
and you talked about your dogs
hey man i want you to marry me
and see our hair turn grey
or maybe in a minute
cause i can't think of what to say to you
in an alley off of gay street
i rushed to climb the stairs
i wanted to find you waiting
but life just isn't fair
i gotta get a word in
i gotta run my mouth
but you were always stubborn
and i was always weak
but maybe if i hang on
for just another week
you'll call me on my cell phone
and talk about the people you'd see
but maybe i'm the sucker
and maybe i'm the fool
to get kicked off my high horse
but i thought you were cool
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tell me how you've been since a long time ago
i'll never understand why you had to go
there's so many things that i want to say
and i'll never get to say them cause you wanna be friends
i don't even like myself
please don't leave you're all i have
i'll dig this hole until im dead
i don't wanna be friends
but i can't do shit about that
i can't comprehend the gravity of the choices that i've made
(here we go again)
pain before pleasure is all i've chosen
i can't really help that im not well spoken
and if you really want
no if you really need that
i'll be sure to take a step back
i don't wanna be friends
i'll grow into something better
i'll grow into someone you can love
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waking up in a parking lot
no clothes and a bottle of liquor in my hand
i'm trying hard just to live my life
but i cant cause my best friend goes by
the name of captain morgan, jose cuervo
they just can't seem to stand me lovin how you're living
so instead, i'll just pander to all these fuckin'
blinding lights
i get no exercise
im just lonely and im lazy
guess you don't know what that means
im thinkin that i was a serpent
sliding my way through the cracks to get what i need
maybe im not so innocent
cause my body just wants to tell me everything
it's alright and im always getting better
better for the worst
cause that's just what i need
maybe i am a little stupid
but im writing along
singin all these songs i hate
i don't wanna point fingers
i don't wanna tell you i have feelings
i won't play pretend
cause once they find an ounce of dirt on my im so totally fucked man
i'm trying hard just to live my life
but i cant cause my best friend goes by
the name of captain morgan, jose cuervo
they just can't seem to stand me lovin how you're living
so instead, i'll just pander to all these fuckin'
blinding lights
i get no exercise
im just lonely and im lazy
guess you don't know what that means
im thinkin that i was a serpent
sliding my way through the cracks to get what i need
maybe im not so innocent
cause my body just wants to tell me everything
im thinkin that i was a serpent
sliding my way through the cracks to get what i need
maybe im not so innocent
cause my body just wants to tell me everything
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sitting in my bedroom
how does it stay so messy
my clock is always on two
but time is always changing
hello my name is "im good"
i think im going crazy
and i am only scared of the afterlife
cause i don't know what's there
morals and principles build up smoke stacks and corporate shit
i put this in my back pocket just to explain my dispair
explain my dispair
and oh we're all going to hell
for all the lies that we tell
oh no, we're all going to hell
and oh, we might as well
the walls in my bedroom
have become close friends lately
with my head pressed against them
i think i'm going crazy
and i am only scared of the afterlife
cause i don't know what's there
morals and principles build up smoke stacks and corporate shit
i put this in my back pocket to explain my dispair
to explain my dispair
and oh we're all going to hell
for all the lies that we tell
oh, we're all going to hell
and oh, we might as well
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i guess it's fucking lame
when you'd thought you'd cut my fucking head off
and i'd rather be
looking at all our "family" photos
in black and white
scrolling on a picture frame
but god damn will i ever feel release?
but i won't tell you
why i'm feeling this way
and i know you regret all the things
and i honestly fucking hate it
(honestly i'm tired of living)
(and i can't get out bed)
(and the best part is that i don't wanna live)
and i know that it won't stop
and i hate it
just like you hated me
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